I have a friend named Emily. She's kind of always there. Not in a bad, "why won't this chick leave me alone?" way. It's more like she always knows when i need someone to talk to, someone to make me laugh, or even someone to just sit and eat dorritos with. Anyway, Emily likes to blog. And over the past few days she's mentioned that i should start blogging too. So tonight, we were doing some work on the computer we decided to make me one. If you're really out there reading and you're really that stupid, this is that blog. So this is m first ever post. And i have to say, simply typing all this out, and putting these events in to words (even if they go unread) is kind of liberating. So, thanks Emily.
At this point in time, i'd like to explain my blogs name, or title, or headline. "Why can't life be great now, and not when?" One day i sat thinking about how my life would be great when i lost a few pounds, when i got that job i wanted, or when i got the guy i thought was cute. That was when i realized, that even if those things did happen, which some have thankyou very much, would my life really be so much better, or would i simply move on to the next "when's"?? eventually, the whens would become things like, when i get my degree, and when i get married, and when i start a family, (Which i see being very far into my future) would my life really be better? would my life actually mean more to me when i had the things and experiences that i wanted? or would it just be different. I feel like when someone says "When...." they may be looking optimistically to the future, but their also looking at that very moment with decidedly pessimistic overtones. So, i've decided that my life is great now. I may not drive a reallynice car, but at least the one i do have runs. I may be living at home while my parents are going through a divorce, but at least i still have my parents and am saving considerably on rent. Someday my life will change. Not for the better, and not for the worse, because in reality who can tell one from the other. You may lose your job but end up finding a better one that you actually like. You could get that promotion you always wanted but miss all the times you could have been with your family. I don't know what's good for me and what's not, so right now, i am content. Well, content-ish, we'll need to see how tonight goes. I'll let you know.
